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Coffee, Cannabis, & Kirk – The ‘Lost’ Parables of Jesus: “The Lost Son”

The Lost Son – 2.April.23

Hello, friends. I hope this post finds you doing very well this day. I apologize for missing last week, as I had two toddlers in the house and I was a bit busy 😊. This is the sermon from a few weeks back, the weekend before Easter, and the last of the ‘Lost’ Parables Series. Now, let’s set the morning ambiance: I am drinking my favourite coffee currently, ☕️ Michigan Cherry. I rolled a mix this morning from yesterday that I cannot recall, but my main leaf this morning was Mendo Breath, an indica that is worth what I paid for it. That being said, I am floating happily along 🍃 and hope you can join me.

Return of the Prodigal Son by: Rembrandt Harmenszoon van Rijn

You can read below, or open your Bible to Luke 15.

And he said, “There was a man who had two sons. And the younger of them said to his father, ‘Father, give me the share of property that is coming to me.’ And he divided his property between them. Not many days later, the younger son gathered all he had and took a journey into a far country, and there he squandered his property in reckless living. And when he had spent everything, a severe famine arose in that country, and he began to be in need. So he went and hired himself out to one of the citizens of that country, who sent him into his fields to feed pigs. And he was longing to be fed with the pods that the pigs ate, and no one gave him anything.

But when he came to himself, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have more than enough bread, but I perish here with hunger! I will arise and go to my father, and I will say to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son. Treat me as one of your hired servants.’’ And he arose and came to his father. But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and felt compassion, and ran and embraced him and kissed him. And the son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’ But the father said to his servants, ‘Bring quickly the best robe, and put it on him, and put a ring on his hand, and shoes on his feet. And bring the fattened calf and kill it, and let us eat and celebrate. For this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found.’ And they began to celebrate.

Now his older son was in the field, and as he came and drew near to the house, he heard music and dancing. And he called one of the servants and asked what these things meant. And he said to him, ‘Your brother has come, and your father has killed the fattened calf, because he has received him back safe and sound.’ But he was angry and refused to go in. His father came out and entreated him, but he answered his father, ‘Look, these many years I have served you, and I never disobeyed your command, yet you never gave me a young goat, that I might celebrate with my friends. But when this son of yours came, who has devoured your properties with prostitutes, you killed the fattened calf for him!’ And he said to him, ‘Son, you are always with me, and all that is mine is yours. It was fitting to celebrate and be glad, for this your brother was dead, and is alive; he was lost, and is found.’

Luke 15: 11-32 (ESV)
The Prodigal Son by: Emile Salome

The younger son comes, takes, and exercises a hostile will toward God; by nature and by choice is hostile to God. The father let’s his son go…

  • God will leave you to yourself, but He never leaves you by yourself. —The Lord will arrange things in your life to get your attention and to get you moving!
  • God regularly gives you more than you can handle, so that you may see your need for His provision. You’re never more in your right mind as an image bearer of God than when you recognize that you are a sinner in need of His grace.
  • A relationship with Jesus is rooted in grace extended to broken men & women. -The son has been practicing, but really has no capacity to demand anything, ie. ‘Treat me like your servants’.
  • God’s grace is extravagant! —He is watching, waiting, and loving you the entire time. “But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and felt compassion, and ran and embraced him and kissed him” (Luke 15: 20b). This one verse is just jumping off the page for me today.*
  • If you think God owes you something, you’re putting yourself in a dangerous place. —The older brother is just as lost as the younger, just in a different way; hard hearted and Pharisaic. (The basis of your relationship with God is NOT based on your good works).
  • GOD STANDS READY TO MEET YOU WITH GRACE. With all the rage the older brother brought, the father replied with calm & grace and with the truth that he was there the entire time.

“And he said to him, ‘Son, you are always with me, and all that is mine is yours. It was fitting to celebrate and be glad, for this your brother was dead, and is alive; he was lost, and is found.’”

Luke 15: 31-32 (ESV)

*Luke 15:20b – Dear Readers, this is just in my mind today, that the Lord loves you and is watching, waiting, for you to come home. .łç.

Prodigal Son by: Wayne Pascall
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Weekend 30.April.23

{pain} 4 {sleep} 6h 45m – I did not have muscle relaxers last night; I utilized gummies and an extra hydroxyzine. I had two deep sleep phases, three REM, and six awake phases amongst the core sleep.

  • Awake: 33m, 7%
  • REM: 56m, 13%
  • Core: 5h 27m, 75%
  • Deep: 22m, 5%
Sleep by: Yavuz Pancareken

I need a day of rest. Let’s see how that goes. Talk Soon, Cecelia 💕

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Sunday, April 30, 2023 -TDP

What are your favorite emojis?

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{🐉✌🏻💚💙💜} <-those I use every day for an alliance post for a game I play.

💯🌞🙄💕⛅️😞🤦🏻‍♀️😑 – And these are my most used.

I would like to now ask Apple, very kindly, to please add a FREAKING CANNABIS EMOJI – because it is now LEGAL both Medically & Recreationally in my state!!! 😡 👿 🤬 but I digress…

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Saturday, April 29th, 2023 -TDP

What topics do you like to discuss?

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Depends on my mood 💯. Sometimes I have only enough nerve to deal with celebrity & fluff topics; other times I can batten down for a full political debate. I am honestly interested in just about everything, if offered the right way; I could probably discuss just about anything. What I don’t like though is the usual.

I would rather people avoid asking the same old, same old… blah, blah, with nothing new. So, creativity is all I ask.łç.

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Friday – end of a DAMNED LONG WEEK. 28.April.23

{pain} 7 {sleep} 9h 21m- but not really at all. My watch was on low power mode all night. 🙄

Faith by: Thomas Baunsgaard
Paradise Canto Thirty One by: Gustave Dore
Death and Life, 1915 by: Gustav Klimt

(Description from fineartamerica.com) “Gustav Klimt’s large painting Death and Life, created in 1910, features not a personal death but rather merely an allegorical Grim Reaper who gazes at “life” with a malicious grin. This “life” is comprised of all generations: every age romp is represented, from the baby to the grandmother, in this depiction of the never-ending circle of life. Death may be able to swipe individuals from life, but life itself, humanity as a whole, will always elude his grasp. The circle of life likewise repeats itself in the diverse, wonderful, pastel-coloured circular ornaments which adorn life like a garland.”

“Gustav Klimt described this painting, which was honored with a first prize at the 1911 International Art Exhibition in Rome, as his most important figurative work. Even so, he seems to suddenly no longer have been satisfied with this version in 1915, for he then began making changes to the painting—which had by that time long since been framed. The background, reportedly once gold-coloured, was made grey, and both death and life were given further ornaments. Standing before the original and examining the left interior edge of Josef Hoffmann’s frame for the painting, one can still discern traces of the subsequent over-painting, which was done by Klimt himself.”

I am physically and emotionally exhausted. I just need to veg. Talk Soon, Cecelia ✌🏻

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Thursday 27.April.23

{pain} 5 {sleep} 5h 47m – I am physically and emotionally drained and it is only getting worse as the days go along. This year is just KICKING MY ARSE.

One of those days by: Gun Legler

My heart is breaking today. My head hurts from crying. I am so tired.

Shame by: Giuseppe Cristiano
Odyssey and Oracle – Album Cover Artwork by: The Zombies Official
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Wednesday, April 26, 2023 -TDP

Write about a time when you didn’t take action but wish you had. What would you do differently?

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This is a difficult question, considering what we are experiencing right now. I wish I would have done more research on how to help my friend Annie, instead of just relying on my previous knowledge. I am learning a lot in a reasonably short amount of time, I just really wish I would have done this sooner so I could have helped her before I messed up and reacted poorly the other day. I acted like her mother.

Anyhow, obviously I am leaving out a lot of detail; let me just say that I am learning that Complex PTSD is a bitch that can burn in hell. I need a new strategy.

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Well it was THAT kind of day. 26.April.23

{pain} 6 {sleep} —

Yesterday was a TwoMonday of the worst kind. I screamed at Annie. I was so scared, sad, disappointed, and just plain fed up with her NOT taking good care of herself that I blew up. I cannot fathom a world where I do not know Mon Petit Homme & Ma Petit Fleur, but she might just completely hate me now. My heart is breaking.

Hit Me Where My Heart Lives by: Steve DeFoe
I Have A Bomb Exploding In My Mind by: Pauline Lim
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Monday, April 24, 2023 -TDP

How do you unwind after a demanding day?

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It seems the answer to many of these, dear Questioner, remains the same… cannabis.

I suppose there was a time that a good red was nice; I like a glass of wine every now and then, but alcohol and my meds don’t mix. I will have a beer at a football game, but usually no more than that. Also, alcohol has never really been my go-to.

Music is helpful, for sure. Sometimes I will watch a show to shut my brain off, or read a book. Or if it has been very, very bad, I will take my meds early and just go to sleep.

Other than that, my honest answer is just one biiiiig joint.

Skull of a Skeleton with Burning Cigarette by: Van Gogh
https://fineartamerica.com/profiles/the-masters
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Had to be a mOnday. 24.April.23

{pain} 5 {sleep} 5h 26m of choppy, interrupted, crap sleep. We have had the children.

Ma Petit Fleur – lookin’ fly.

At this moment, Mon Petit Homme is in surgery. His wee willie winkie is getting fixed… hypospadias repair, and a circumcision to boot (since they are already there). I am here with his mama, trying to keep her from a panic attack, (though she is doing well!) – basically doing my ‘support animal’ thing! I will be honest and tell you what I told her, I am very proud of her. This Mother’s Day will be the first with both of the kids and she is taking good care of them.

Annie with her little man! Soooo happy on Versed!

Once the Versed kicked in this little guy was doing juuuust fine; I will edit the video soon for you. He was so amazing today. He woke up at about 3am or so, but I got him to go back to sleep until six (which was a feat since he is used to waking up at 4am). Annie did try to call me at 5am, but I very LOUDLY TEXTED her with not so kind language, because she is on bypass as his parent & it was very loud. Anyhow, he woke up at six am and I kept him busy trying to keep him away from the kitchen. Boyo just goes to the kitchen when he is hungry, so he was pretty angry when I blocked it off & kept taking him other places. I gave him water and found out later he wasn’t supposed to have even that, but I don’t give a flying füuuu… I digress.

Cooperation by: Matthias L?scher

Thankfully he slept most of the way to Champaign and was a complete delight when we got to the hospital. He is so happy and engaging; he meets everyone eye-to-eye when they walk into the room. The boyo is just so happy… I want to have a different word, but you just look in his face and you see joy. Until he is hungry, that is.

Surgery in Hospital by: Anna Sahlsten

I missed church yesterday; missed my Coffee, Cannabis, & Kirk post, all because we had the two kids… oh, and Violet moved in.

Violet by: Hans Repelnig https://fineartamerica.com/profiles/1x

So, Violet moved in. I think I kept that on the DL for a minute. Violet is Rœgn’s best friend and will be turning 21 in June. We met her last year around the Popcorn Festival. On that note, I gotta go. Talk Soon, Cecelia

Small Violets by: Nel Talen
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HELLo weekend. 15.April.23

{pain} 4-5 {sleep} well, my phone says 8h 27m ‘in bed’ without actual sleep data for some reason. I am very tired; I have been awake since 430a. Violet stayed the night; we have to take her home before Rœgn goes to work. Yay. So, I will be leaving momentarily…

SUNFLOWERS AND LAVENDER FIELD – THE COLORS OF PROVENCE
by: Mona Adulesco

…back. I am considering a mild stimulant to help with concentration today. How do you feel about that? I honestly believe I have been self medicating with coffee… no joke. My old Starbucks back in Oklahoma once gave me the title of ‘Most Caffeinated Person’ they knew. I held that honor with pride for several years.

The Souls of Leaves by: Tara Turner

I’m in a mood, as you can see. I have to sell Gloryah, my Jeep, and try to find a vehicle I can afford. 😑

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420

{pain} 3 – I’m hiiiiigh. {sleep} 5h 50m – maybe. My watch died at some point.

My ma is back on the road.

The eagle has flown…finally.

The relief is real in the house as we will be celebrating today and working like crazy tomorrow… as Violet is moving in tomorrow. I have kept that very close to my vest because I want to traverse this very carefully. We don’t plan on staying here much longer, (out by fall), but she needed to get out of her house pronto.

Violet Storm by: Fivefishcreative

I have mentioned Violet before, yes? Rœgn and I met her last autumn during the Popcorn Festival and they have been besties ever since. They are a bit co-dependent and need to spread their individual wings, and I honestly believe that moving out of her house is step one in that for her.

Violet Cow by: Marion Rose

I am going to post now, mainly because this is a very busy day. I hope you have a very blessed FourTwenty.✌🏻 Talk Soon, Čęćęłįâ

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Tuesday, April 18th, 2023 -TDP

Describe a positive thing a family member has done for you.

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My mother helped me financially in raising my daughter. I am a disabled, single mom who has never received much child support from her father. The last ten years my mom has helped me by not charging me rent, helping with food costs, clothing, and shoes (since my daughter’s feet just NEVER stopped growing), among many other costs of raising a child. There is no way I could have sent Rœ to a private school without that help, even though we did qualify for low income tuition, obviously. I owe my mom so much, not only for all that she did in raising me, but in all the help she has given me in raising my daughter.