Marching on… a Monday • Quick Vacation, but not for me • Damn I’m tired.

{pain} 4 • I need to get up & stretch! Desperately need to get back into a good routine. (Do you have a morning routine?)

👉🏻Why is my coffee cup always empty?

I begin to write today’s post & my cup is empty; pardon for a moment as I brew another. (Yes, I know I could leave that out & you would never know! But where’s the fun in that?)

Coffee Cup, Almost Empty, From Above by: Meera Lee Sethi

Roegn left this morning with Faith for a week vacation in Colorado. I’m jealous, I don’t mind saying… I could use a vacation! I wanted to talk with Faith about many things, not only about the trip but about my reasons behind not wanting them to go to Louisiana, among other things before they left. However, for whatever reason (I could guess), Faith chose to wait until this morning to offer the opportunity to talk.

I wanted to know where they were going, not surprising in my opinion. Faith’s main point? That Roe is 19 & an adult.

Adulting would not recommend by: Norman W

So, here’s where I must step in & say -no. My daughter is quite self-aware & mature in many ways! However, she is also naive & oblivious in many ways as a result of how I raised her; I don’t mind saying that I protected her more than I ever was at any age. Roe’s best friend died in a car accident when they were 16 years old and as a result of that trauma I have allowed Roe to take her time with things like school (I had her redo the 2020-2021 school year as well) & getting her license. My daughter has yet to graduate high school as a result has been allowed to grieve and move through the trauma of losing her friend.

[~A different approach to the situation can be seen in Jaime’s twin sister – who graduated as quickly as possible, got a good job at a bank, and now finds herself pregnant (at 18), living happily with her boyfriend.~]

Driving Into A Tunnel On A Clear Day In Denver, Colorado
by: Cavan Images

All of that said, it is obvious that my daughter is not an adult; she has zero interest in being one, as well. I have allowed her to stretch her wings several times, all of those times were also curated with the most safety possible. Faith is more of a “throw them in the fire” type, I think, which I can appreciate to a point. I was raised by being thrown in many fires, lakes, empty houses, etc. I raised myself, as many GenXer’s did and as a result I tend to over-protect my child. Also because I am aware that I have this tendency, I actively attempt to keep it in mind.

That’s why I let her go on the trip. I simply wanted to discuss it, in person, with Faith & Roe… something which did not happen to my liking, but did happen nonetheless.

Automat by: Edward Hopper

Violet left last night to hang out with friends & she did not come home… she is of course, 21 years old & and “adult” (more like ‘adult-in-training’). However, she knew Roe was leaving this morning & didn’t even say goodbye! 😔 I fear this will lead to something ugly… but I digress. The point? I find myself very much alone! I have several lists of things needing done & will begin here in the home (as I usually hide on Mondays).

With that, I hope that your day is lovely & that you find a way to be kind on purpose.

🗣️Talk Soon,
Cecelia✌🏻🌊💙