Fri•high•day & the Weekend– So, this is what I’ve been up to…

{pain} I have had a head ache for days that is really starting to piss me off. Guess what is back? {sleep} <‹dammit, my watch died›> 🤦🏻‍♀️ Well, the point is that I figured out what was wrong with my Apple Watch since the last update. The update reset something which I had to turn back on – & of course, now I can’t remember. {6h 23m}
[editing Cecelia]- Geezus H. Roosevelt Cripes, I am a mess.

Woman with a headache #2 by: CSA Images

Apologies for not posting more recently; I must catch you up on tidbits & news (not from the headlines, but from my lifelines). Originally, I wanted to expand this blog with more areas of interest, and whereas that is the end goal – it will take time. The truth is that I have been procrastinating, focusing on the wrong things, and occasionally fighting with Roegn, which has taken my attention. I have also been in a great deal of pain from the shoulders up, which according to the ENT is a direct result of tension & stress, clenching my jaw at night & during the day!

What I need to do is live healthier so that I can perform better – write more interesting & helpful articles; begin the podcast (Jack & the Beans Talk & X & Z Explain Why); create sustain.able.future – a website that has articles on a variety of issues & a merch store that offers fair sourced coffee, chocolate, & cannabis merch; be involved with the Blue Wave & helping out local, state, & national elections.

I have goals.

The problem, as I see it, is what it has always been ••• I begin something & cannot finish it, I have performance anxiety, and perfectionism issues. I know I can do this, I just need to do it.

There’s also the dark demon (Major Depressive Disorder) lurking, causing a myriad of issues. I missed my last counseling appointment, which was a mistake.

A Woman And Man Sit On A Couch At Marriage by: Harry Bliss published in New Yorker, 4.May.15

The peer counseling program that we are attempting to set up has been paused so I can re-up my education on the programs available & Peer Counseling in general. Truly, I could use a group counseling program right now – which is why I want to set one up!

I cannot be the only person who needs it right now.

It’s Not Nuts by: Pia Guerra & Ian Boothby
Publication: New Yorker, 2.December.19

—Sunday, May 12th
Happy Mother’s Day. My daughter forgot & even when reminded, she didn’t really give af; she’s getting ready to go out with friends.

Am I being a petty bitch? Probably.

Does it hurt that she didn’t even say goodbye? Yes.

Alice in Wonderland by: George Dunlop Leslie

I’m messing up somehow. My relationship with Roegn is flailing & I don’t know what I’m doing so very wrong. Were we destined to fall apart? I say, “NO” with everything in me. I must fix this • must figure out what the hell is going on, what I’m doing so very wrong…

👉🏻Talk Soon,
Cecelia✌🏻🌊💙

Caturday • 27.April.24 • When reality sets in… 🥺

{pain} 4 • thankfully began stretching again today & can immediately feel the difference. {sleep} I don’t effin’ know & that pisses me off. Apple still has not fixed the issues with the last update.

Anatomy of Human Ear #1 by: TriFocal Communications

I went to the ENT (Ear, Nose, & Throat) doctor yesterday. She checked me out & said that she thinks two things are going on… one is my Eustachian tube not doing its job properly. Second, & probably more important, it seems as though I am clenching my jaw at night and possibly during the day as well.

Recall I have Trigeminal Neuralgia on both sides of my face, which makes it impossible to tell if I have an ear infection or if it’s just the pain from TN. I also have jaw pain from TN on the reg, therefore – I wouldn’t notice if I wake up clenching my jaw at night. (& I do wake up at 3am & 6am every freakin’ morning due to 🐈‍⬛). There are times when the pain from TN comes that I do clench my jaw as I massage it to get through the pain.

Divided by: Mario Sanchez Nevado

It takes time to process information, especially info that may point the finger at my mental health. I have been surviving Major Depressive Disorder for quite a bit this time. [It began in college & has come & go in phases through my life]. This last go-around probably began in November of 2021 when my daughter’s best friend died in a car accident. For two years I focused on her mental health & ignored how I was feeling.

I should have known better.

We Don’t Talk About That by: Raymond Delgado

Just like now – I should have realized that clenching my jaw at night & during the day off & on is a result of stress & reaction of my body to depression. It happened once before, I clenched my jaw so badly I thought I had TMJ. That followed a severe break-up & I was *surprise, surprise* severely depressed.

Please don’t misunderstand, I didn’t think I was ‘cured’, by no means; like I said, I’ve been here before. I understand that it’s all a process & what the process needs the most is ‘time’ with counseling & self-reflection & oftentimes medication.

It is incredibly frustrating.

Man With Face in a Vise Drawing by: CSA Images

If you’re in the same boat mentally, emotionally, please know that you’re not alone. There are many like us, who are surviving through the same muck & mire. Hopefully you too are going to counseling, perhaps with a psychologist & also a psychiatrist – maybe a therapist, mayb a group… if not, you can always text 988 if you find yourself in a dark place.

With that I say, talk soon.
Cecelia✌🏻🌊💙

Post Script: Some Caturday pics for you… with love, Lady Diana 🐈‍⬛🐾

Quite a day for justice… in the year of accountability. • Happy Thor’s day.⚡️

*Content Warning – S.A. & war*

So many legal events occurring today as well as surprise indictments from Arizona for those fake electors in the 2020 election; & Arizona’s third attempt to repeal their archaic abortion law. The Supreme Court heard oral arguments about “absolute presidential immunity” – even though the creation of our country was a direct response to ‘absolute monarchical immunity’. 🤷🏻‍♀️

Supreme Court Justices Say To A Man Approaching by: Paul Noth
Published in the New Yorker 21.Sept.15

If you’re following what is happening in Gaza, Hamas says they would lay down their arms if an independent Palestinian state is established. According to the AP, “the Islamic militant group is willing to agree to a truce of five years or more with Israel & that it would lay down its weapons & convert into a political party if an independent Palestinian state is established along pre-1967 borders.”

It is unlikely anything will come of it. Israel has vowed to destroy Hamas in retaliation for the attacks of October 7th & Netanyahu is opposed to the creation of a Palestinian state. (Sewell, 25.April.24, AP)

We shall return
From the destruction and hatred you sow
From every inch of our land
That hosted a martyr
We shall return
Despite of your killing and brutality and the collaboration of traitors who sold out
helping to realize your schemes in our Palestine
We shall return to our land to the land of our ancestors!
by: Imad Abu shtayyah

Back home in the US, the New York Court of Appeals overturned the 2020 rape conviction of Harvey Weinstein. The Court said, “prosecutors in the pivotal #MeToo case called witnesses whose accusations were not part of the charges against him.” That, apparently, meant that he was “unfairly tried for past behaviour.” The court has ordered a new trial. Thankfully, Weinstein remains in prison as he was convicted of rape in LA.

The Issue
“What is the issue? Government, money, abuse, SILENCE?
We’ve been silent for many reasons, but the issue is surfacing.
Silence No More!”
by: Jounda Strong

Climate Change & Sustainability News (nothing new, but really, I mean we REALLY should boycott all of these brands until they realize they’re not doing enough to mitigate their destruction of our world).
Axios reports, “Fifty-six brands led by The Coca-Cola Company are responsible for more than half of the plastic pollution found across the globe, according to a new study.”

The top five ar§holes?
1. Coca-Cola (11%)
2. PepsiCo (5%)
3. Nestlé (3%)
4. Danone (3%)
5. Altria (2%)

Great Pacific Garbage Patches by: NOAA Marine Debris Program

The above illustration shows the locations of the garbage patches in the Pacific Ocean: the Western Garbage Patch, the Eastern Garbage Patch, and the Subtropical Convergence Zone. “These large rotating ocean currents (gyres) contain marine debris particles and are characterized by exceptionally high concentrations of plastics, chemical sludge, and other debris that have become trapped by the currents of the North Pacific Current.” (Source: NOAA)

Hope you enjoyed this short rundown of what’s going on in the world today.
🗣️Talk Soon,
Cecelia ✌🏻🌊💙

Wednesday, 24th of April, 2024 • TDP • #WorthyRisk

Describe a risk you took that you do not regret.

—Questioner

Dear Questioner, this relates to my answer just the other day… moving to Illinois, where we had no friends or family other than my mom & stepdad, who were truck drivers & never home. The Oklahoma we left behind was markedly different than what it has become over the last decade in so many ways. Several times I have been reflective of the past, or confronted by events, in which I have pondered where we would be had we not left Oklahoma.

No Regrets by: Pam Holdsworth A quote by John Barrymore.

Mostly, I think about what Roegn would be like had we not left. First, she would have a southern accent. Honestly, that would have annoyed me, but wouldn’t have been irreconcilable. Second, I would have had a more difficult time battling the ‘Republican mindset’ as we would have been surrounded by family & friends that were on the right. That would have made 2016 intolerable. I mean, that’s why I’m not on facebook much anymore • 2016 was the beginning of a chasm between myself & many of my friends and family.

Explore Yourself
“Self Portrait Study, me drawing myself. The only way to truly know yourself is to study & examine yourself from every conceivable angle. But you must also keep in mind that we are never the same person from one moment to the next.”
by: Amber Ryder

Third, she would not have had the freedom to swim through her identity as she grew up. As we saw with the death of Nex Benedict, people who are different are bullied with impunity in Oklahoma. Roe has always been influenced excessively by her environment, which is why she didn’t go to public school – even here in Illinois. It took me over 18 years to help her understand that she is worthy of being herself & not someone others want her to be (even me). I honestly believe that had we stayed in Oklahoma she would have been hit from every side NOT to be who she wanted to be, but to be what THEY wanted her to be.

In that instance, I would have been forced to be overtly leftist & probably would have been more radical in order to balance the information coming from family, school, church, local government, and the news.

By: Studio Grafikka

The risk? We moved to a place where we didn’t have friends, family, or know anyone within a 3 hour drive… eventually more, closest being 6 hours away. This was not new to me, as I was raised a nomad, and because of that attempted to keep my daughter in the same place for most of her upbringing. Oddly enough, all the positives I had heard about growing up in one place ended up not being what my daughter experienced, but that’s another story for a different time.
∞Cecelia

Step of Faith by: Pennie Mirande

Thor’s day • Threads Thursday • End of special torture week.

{pain} 3 • I’m stretching, or attempting to remember to do so every day. Finally had my blood draw for the allergy test and was able to take my Allegra & Cingular after. I still have the head ache (5 days now) which should go away by tonight, I think.

Vigo County Historical Museum Terre Haute, Indiana by: Jack Schultz

Roegn & I went to Terre Haute yesterday to visit the IRS; my poor girl, she is dealing with identity theft! Someone sent in a paper filing with her social security number; so now she had to go to the IRS, prove who she was, and now must also file by paper (to give them time to deal with the imposter). She has continually mentioned that ‘adulting has completely sucked’ & she ‘doesn’t want anything to do with growing up’ – which is just so whiny! I think about what I was doing at her age & think, damn, she just needs to grow up!

Terre De Haute by: Greg Dyro

Then I remember that we continue to move through our grief. Let me be clear, I’ve had her in therapy for years; having a friend die was not the initial reason Roe was in counseling. It has taken a very long time for her to be able to admit that she had not fully worked through or processed her grief over Jaime’s death.

Well, I’m going to stop there • there’s no need to delve deeply into the depths of depression & bad memories.

Quick question: Are you using threads? You can find me @sustain.able.future • we are building up a blue wave! It’s important to stay informed, especially in the times we are living through. It may not seem like it, but we are in historic times. We are also building a community of people who care about each other & want to build each other up – we are uninterested in tearing people down. Hope to see you there!

🗣️Talk Soon,
Cecelia✌🏻🌊💙

👉🏻Here are some of my favourites from threads🧵 this week:

Stormy with a Chance of Jail Time. • Tax Day • The Ides of April

{pain} generally okay, but living without allergy medicine & one of my asthma meds is a special kind of torture. I’m wheezy with a strong chance of snot. (I’m definitely in a Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs kind of mood). I have had a head ache for days, I’m coughing up nastiness, & each time Lady Diana comes near my face I feel my lungs. This process sucks.

Billboard for Michael Cohen by: Ellis Rosen
published in the New Yorker 9.April.18

Today is the first day of the first criminal trial of a sitting or former U.S. president. We never thought we would get to this point, the time it has taken to get here seems to have passed as molasses through the hour glass. Here is a quick rundown of the case from a criminal defense attorney I appreciate, CLRBruceRivers (a 38m watch).

United States Courthouse NYC by: Jerry Fornarotto

This process is going to take longer than we’d like. The anatomy of a trial is this:
• Jury Selection. They’re calling 500 New York citizens for jury selection in their attempt to find 18 people (12 jurors with 6 alternates) who say they can be objective.
• NY State opening statement.
• Defense can either offer an opening statement or reserve the right to do so after the prosecution rests their case.
• Prosecution lays out their case through the calling of witnesses & evidence.
• Defense cross examines
• State rests; usually the defense will make a motion for acquittal.
• Defense presents their case, witnesses, evidence.
• State cross-examines.
• Defense rests; state can present rebuttal witnesses.
• State closing arguments.
• Defense closing arguments.
• State has the option of a short rebuttal.

A Killer Whale Is In Court by: Jack Ziegler
published in the New Yorker 26.May.08

Trump is charged with 34 counts of falsifying business records to cover up other crimes. Those crimes included paying off two women to keep them silent as well as payments to news agencies to kill the stories and disguising the payments as legal fees. Michael Cohen went to jail for these crimes. There are also tax issues, campaign finance issues, and other federal charges involved.

The most serious infraction, really, is how he’s treated the judicial system, and people within it, specific people – like the judge’s daughter.

Bruce Rivers, Criminal Lawyer

Not certain if I will continue to cover this so closely. If you’d like to see how both sides are covering the trial, you should go to ground.news – which is the absolute best place to get your news. It gives you the bare facts of the story, then access to many news outlets across the political spectrum – left to right, so you can see how everyone is covering the story.

New Yorker April 4, 2023 by: Adam Douglas Thompson

Today will be full of more laundry & cleaning for me; I took a break yesterday, living with chronic pain means stretching out every day tasks. I’m moving much more slowly as a result of the snot clouding my brain, which is making typing this much more difficult than it should be. Ugh. On that note, I’m going to wish you a quick Monday.

🗣️Talk Soon,
Cecelia ✌🏻🌊💙

Weekender • Red Alert • Eagle Incoming!

{pain} 3 • I’m feeling rather okayish; my ear continues to hurt (my left ear remains infected).

Welcome to the weekend! My ma (aka Eagle) will be here at the house this week, probably around Wednesday or Thursday.

Super excited🙄.

Perhaps this is the fire I needed to get me going? (Typed whilst drinking coffee, sitting in bed, ugh). Okay, fine. Gimme a sec, I need to go start a load of laundry.

Alrighty… so, when separating our clothes I have noticed time & again that our black/navy pile is ginormous! We have three loads of black/navy clothes that does not include pants! Somehow I have allowed several mounds to grow into their own mountains ••• I will be lost within the flowery sniffs of clothes for the next several hours…

Loneliness by: Patrick Odorizzi
https://fineartamerica.com/profiles/1x

I have decided that my first major podcast with be about loneliness & how we as a society are not dealing with it. Well, that’s not true. I have to re-record my introductory video to include Jack & the Daily Beans, which I hope to do with a dear friend of mine (who just broke her leg stepping off her deck ~random tangent) first.

More & more recently I have noticed articles about people being lonely as well as an increase in articles about social anxiety & and failure of our society in general over the last decade or more. It will be a good way to introduce the peer counseling service, which eventually will also be available online. [I need to work on that script today – good times.]

Laundry 1 by: Ali Chris

Today is National Scrabble Day – I’m grateful for the OG of word games. I remember the first time I beat my Ma • I felt so proud of myself bc my Ma was a master at Scrabble. As my vocabulary expanded, it was more fun to play. Speaking of my Ma, I need to get going. I have a list of things to accomplish before she lands.

Hope your Caturday is going well! Below you can see Lady Diana is enjoying herself… she’s quite spoiled.

🗣️Talk Soon,
Cecelia✌🏻🌊💙

National Erase Self-Negativity Day • Hump Day • Just effin’ get out of bed… ugh. oops.

{pain} 4 – back to the usual neck, shoulders, & left arm.

Happy Wednesday, dear friends. Is it just me or have you felt ultra lazy this week? I’ve had to force myself to do anything, to include eating; surviving on coffee has been my jam. If you’ve read this blog for a while you’ll know I tend to speak ‘firmly’ to myself – some sincere self-negativity at times. I have a tendency to allow my self-deprecation to morph into self-negativity.

Today is National Erase Self-Negativity Day • which includes (but is not limited to) erasing negative self-talk & replacing it with positive self-talk. It’s important that we teach our kids positive self-talk so that they can become more resilient & simply love themselves more; but it’s also incredibly important for adults to remember to do these things. (Or perhaps learn them anew?)

https://www.calmsage.com/positive-self-talk/

It’s also National Siblings Day – so give yours a call, eh? Whether by blood, adoption, fostering, or just those you’ve created on your own • give love to your siblings! And National Encourage a Young Writer Day, among others that you can see here. The idea is to be kind on purpose, friends.

Talk Soon,
Cecelia

Two Sisters by: Pierre Auguste Renoir or On The Terrace, 1881

https://leverageedu.com/discover/trending-events/encourage-a-young-writer-day/

🎶Total Eclipse of the Sun🎶 • Really need to get outside & touch grass.

{pain} 3 • though I’ve had head aches, which is annoying.

The “Ring Of Fire” Matrix by: Tengyu Cai
https://fineartamerica.com/profiles/1x

It’s a bit terrifying that it has taken a celestial event to get me outside & moving around. Do you have any special eclipse plans? I know of several parties going on – looks like too many people to me// just cannot handle that on a Monday. Our little touristy town is just on the outside of the path of totality; though we do not have the infrastructure for an influx of people. I’m hoping that doesn’t happen.

We are planning to go downtown & see if there are any solar eclipse glasses, as I planned to create a pinhole projector. So, I’m gonna get up & get going…

Eclipse Zone of Totality Vermont by: Lorraine Zaloom
https://fineartamerica.com/profiles/lorraine-zaloom

There shouldn’t be any cows jumping over the sun/moon eclipse today, but we might see something crazy hereabouts. I look forward to adding to this post at some point, or perhaps just catching up tomorrow. Wishing you all the best & please have a safe & happy solar eclipse!

🗣️Talk Soon,
Cecelia✌🏻🌊💙

Eclipses 1 by: Daniel Patrick Kessler
https://fineartamerica.com/profiles/artlicensing

Fri•high•day •

{pain} 5 – I’ve been eating too much… we ordered too much pizza whilst eating our feelings.

Solar Eclipse by: Jennifer Lommers

Happy Friday, high-day! Monday is the eclipse & we are in the path of totality…

…located right off the Interstate & have over 10 world record attractions.

We do not have the infrastructure to accommodate the number of people I fear may decide to come here to spend their solar eclipse.

The Path of Totality by: Vadim Ianulionoc

I was finally able to catch up with my best friend yesterday. Our two hour conversation wasn’t nearly enough, but it was a great beginning. Her life has been absolutely insane the past year & I’ve been ill most of the time. I’m going to go ahead & post this – I have a head ache that is clogging my brain.

🗣️Talk Soon,
Cecelia✌🏻🌊💙

Here are a few favourites snagged from threads today:

Am I just deep in lazy, ‘rainy day’ blues… or is this serious?

{pain} 6 – mostly due to inactivity. I must get back into a good routine.

Snagged off Threads

If you’ve been reading this blog for a while you’ll know that I’ve been crawling my way out from Major Depressive Disorder ••• a path I have traversed before, beginning in college. I’m currently in therapy & on medication… yet I struggle. The journey of depression is rife with high highs & low lows… and when you find yourself stuck in a rut (same thing happening over & over, or simply just petrification) it seems overwhelming. What’s worse, if you have family or friends who are either enablers by nature, enduring depression themselves, or avoidance specialists, your behavior could be mirrored in others.

Depression by: Bildagentur-online/ohde/science Photo Library

For example, my daughter Roegn has also been struggling with depression for a few years now. We both are struggling with simply getting out of bed… let alone work, school, blog, podcast, etc. Often I think that if only one other person would join our efforts, perhaps that would ignite the fire beneath our arses. Perhaps I just need to get up myself, get going, & push my daughter to do the same. But that’s just so difficult at this moment.

The Tentacles of Major Depression by: MB Dallocchio

We are beginning a peer counseling group that will meet in person here in Casey, but also online if there’s a need. If you’re interested in peer counseling, which is best utilized in concert with your own therapy – as a building up of your support network.

You can email kafe.counseling@gmail.com with any questions. Hopefully we can build something beautiful.
🗣️Talk Soon,
Cecelia✌🏻🌊💙

Fri•high•day • my heart hurts a little.

{pain} my back & neck are at a 6… my heart is about a 13.
{sleep} my Apple sleep has not been working since the last update… anyone else??? 😠

Why is my coffee cup always empty? I know I asked that just yesterday, or the day before… but damn if it isn’t a struggle.

I can add to my coffee issue with a need for more cannabis… I need to go shopping.

(Empty coffee cup by: Tom Gowanlock)

Roegn will be home later tonight; I am very excited, I have missed her – as you know. I continue to edit over 500 pictures and many videos from their trip to Colorado• I will get the stories to accompany them over the weekend. We will also discuss the other thing that happened; that thing that hurt my heart…

Girl’s Trip Update: From Colorado, With Love. • Energy’s return?

{pain} I’m down to a 3.5 in my left arm – but my right (please recall the wonky iron infusion) it is hurting something fierce. Sometimes I cannot lift my coffee cup, which is frightening. We are out of water (5 gallon jugs) & Violet is coming home after work today to help me out. I have had more energy today, which is nice.

Hopefully Roegn won’t mind when I share that our first conversation after she left for Colorado began with her saying, “I have discovered that I don’t like being three states away from you.” Luckily, she’s having a lovely time – working through the anxiety is something that is needed & healthy.

I have always admired the Colorado sky.

Faith & Roegn

How much do we love public transport?

Welcome to the Aquarium

Roe was transfixed by the Jellyfish

Lep•Rock•aun

Rock on rock.

🐡Welcome to the Denver Aquarium! Faith has a love of Aquarium’s so it became their first stop in Denver. Enjoying all the beauty including touching stingrays, it looks like they had a great time.

They discovered a love of the Rock (in the Aquarium) that I find a bit odd, but it offered cute merch.

Family Picture!

Moon Jellies!

This guy reminds me of the police.

#LifeGoals

Looks like they had a great time at the Aquarium

The Uncle they’re staying with is ‘pretty awesome’, per Roe. There was a blanket declaration from the beginning: “This is a tRump-free house.” They have had good conversations & he & his wife have offered them a lovely home to stay in.

They have hit a vintage store that makes my soul grieve to miss and a museum so far today. I look forward to sharing more.

🗣️Talk Soon,
Cecelia✌🏻🌊💙

Travelin’ Tuesday • Get up & go, you silly b—! • ‘Odd Voice Mail’s that Cause Anxiety to Skyrocket’ for $100, please.

{pain} body is a 4 • right ear is a 7 & has been for a few days. Trigeminal Neuralgia makes it difficult to know when or if I have an ear infection, which I am more & more prone to in my old age.

Deep by: Mario Sanchez Nevado

I received a voicemail from a lovely lady in Kingman, Kansas, via my daughter’s phone, explaining that the phone was left at a gas station. (I was taking a nap, don’t judge). Later I received a text from Roe to let me know they arrived at their destination in Colorado. I ended up calling her this morning to check, woke her up 😖, & found out she left her phone in the bathroom – but did go back to get it.

None of that stopped my anxiety from peaking until I heard her voice & I will not apologize for that.

Get Up Dress Up Show Up… by: Studio Grafikka

I spent my morning telling myself to ‘get up & go, you silly b—!’ …as I took my sweet time. Now, many hours later, I am bathed, dressed, fed & caffeinated… ready to go! It is my ‘traveling Tuesday’ & I have a list of things that must be accomplished; we will see how the day ends.

🗣️Talk Soon,
Cecelia✌🏻🌊💙

Marching on… a Monday • Quick Vacation, but not for me • Damn I’m tired.

{pain} 4 • I need to get up & stretch! Desperately need to get back into a good routine. (Do you have a morning routine?)

👉🏻Why is my coffee cup always empty?

I begin to write today’s post & my cup is empty; pardon for a moment as I brew another. (Yes, I know I could leave that out & you would never know! But where’s the fun in that?)

Coffee Cup, Almost Empty, From Above by: Meera Lee Sethi

Roegn left this morning with Faith for a week vacation in Colorado. I’m jealous, I don’t mind saying… I could use a vacation! I wanted to talk with Faith about many things, not only about the trip but about my reasons behind not wanting them to go to Louisiana, among other things before they left. However, for whatever reason (I could guess), Faith chose to wait until this morning to offer the opportunity to talk.

I wanted to know where they were going, not surprising in my opinion. Faith’s main point? That Roe is 19 & an adult.

Adulting would not recommend by: Norman W

So, here’s where I must step in & say -no. My daughter is quite self-aware & mature in many ways! However, she is also naive & oblivious in many ways as a result of how I raised her; I don’t mind saying that I protected her more than I ever was at any age. Roe’s best friend died in a car accident when they were 16 years old and as a result of that trauma I have allowed Roe to take her time with things like school (I had her redo the 2020-2021 school year as well) & getting her license. My daughter has yet to graduate high school as a result has been allowed to grieve and move through the trauma of losing her friend.

[~A different approach to the situation can be seen in Jaime’s twin sister – who graduated as quickly as possible, got a good job at a bank, and now finds herself pregnant (at 18), living happily with her boyfriend.~]

Driving Into A Tunnel On A Clear Day In Denver, Colorado
by: Cavan Images

All of that said, it is obvious that my daughter is not an adult; she has zero interest in being one, as well. I have allowed her to stretch her wings several times, all of those times were also curated with the most safety possible. Faith is more of a “throw them in the fire” type, I think, which I can appreciate to a point. I was raised by being thrown in many fires, lakes, empty houses, etc. I raised myself, as many GenXer’s did and as a result I tend to over-protect my child. Also because I am aware that I have this tendency, I actively attempt to keep it in mind.

That’s why I let her go on the trip. I simply wanted to discuss it, in person, with Faith & Roe… something which did not happen to my liking, but did happen nonetheless.

Automat by: Edward Hopper

Violet left last night to hang out with friends & she did not come home… she is of course, 21 years old & and “adult” (more like ‘adult-in-training’). However, she knew Roe was leaving this morning & didn’t even say goodbye! 😔 I fear this will lead to something ugly… but I digress. The point? I find myself very much alone! I have several lists of things needing done & will begin here in the home (as I usually hide on Mondays).

With that, I hope that your day is lovely & that you find a way to be kind on purpose.

🗣️Talk Soon,
Cecelia✌🏻🌊💙

🐈‍⬛ Caturday • 16th of March • Catsup 🥫 Day & the Greatest Comeback Story Never Told

{pain} ugh… the last month is catching up to my body, so I’m at about a 6 • mainly in my neck, shoulders & arms. My right arm, the one in which the iron infusion went wonky, hurts like a motherf—. {sleep} my sleep app has not worked since the last watch update. (Hey, Apple pay attention!)

Lady Diana enjoying Caturday

☝🏻Beginning with Caturday, please post your pictures of your kitties & your doggos – we love to see them!

Source: Jeff Creation

✌🏻Catching up? • Roegn is headed to Colorado on Monday with her friend, Faith. I have yet to be able to speak with Faith about the trip; originally it was to Louisiana, but I squashed that.

Here’s my perspective: You (Faith • late 20s, Black), want to take my daughter, (just 19 years old, not graduated high school, having zero experience in life & kinda oblivious sometimes), down through gun-toting Missouri, crazy-arse, child labor loving, Arkansas, only to vacation in f^cking Louisiana?
➡️ A place you can drive whilst drinking alcohol as long as you’re under the limit?
➡️ Where there’s more accidents due to drunk driving as a result?
➡️ Three RED states that absolutely despise people like my child???

And with all that, you (Faith), never offered me the respect of asking my permission for this trip, or even discussing it with me at all!

That will be some of our discussion tomorrow.

Source: Celestial Images

🤟🏻 I finally watched the State of the Union & I highly recommend taking the time to watch it (if you have yet to do so).

Our President, Joe Biden, is not too old. He is articulate, humorous, clever, kind, and he actually cares about you.

Biden has a great plan for our country. He wants to reduce the burdens of student debt that many live under, expand education for everyone, build up the middle class, expand unions, and finally give public school teachers a raise! Biden wants the wealthy to pay their far share, protect Social Security & the retirement age, & stop corporations from increasing their profits through “shrinkflation” and other slimy practices like junk fees & cutting credit card fees from $30something down to $8 among other changes. Biden is taking on the NRA • finally.

I’ll stop there, even though there’s more! In speaking with people on our last trip, I noticed they were discussing news from months ago – nothing recent. The news cycle moves pretty fast & it’s more important than ever to stay up to date with everything that is going on in our country. With that, I will leave you be.

🗣️Talk Soon,
Cecelia ✌🏻🌊💙

Post Script: One of the most amazing feats in history may be Repugnants elevating Joe freakin’ Biden as a leader for Women’s Rights & LGBTQIA+ rights… this white, 81-year old, catholic, capitalist, straight man.

…stranger things, yeah?

Woden’s Day with a Cheshire Moon

HEELLLOOOO MY FRIENDS!!! {pain} 5 – first day following the trip to swMo. {sleep} I don’t know, my watch has been wonky since the last update.

Young Mother #5 by: Giovanni Giacometti

Have you ever woken up & felt like a whole bunch of crazy is about to fall upon you? Yesterday we were told that another of my daughter’s school friends is pregnant; she is 18 years old. I am unsure of my feelings at this point; she & her family are excited, so we will be excited.

The Bride Unfinished by: Gustav Klimt

Today is the first recovery day post road trip… speaking of, Roegn was sick on the way home. The bag I gave her to get sick in had a hole in it! So, I gave her the only other bag, a large paper bag from a grocery store. Well, she vomited a lot & it just bled through quite quickly & when she attempted to throw it outside, it was caught on the door lock – ew. (Below you can see the window) We stopped at a truck stop where I got paper towels & a bottle of cleaner for $15 • sheesh.

Roegn with her bowl, for safety.

Roegn went in after me & asked for trash bags. The woman at the register said, “You’re the kid who threw up in the back of the truck, right?” Yep! She was very kind & gave her several trash bags for free (which was great since the tiny box for sale was over $10\).

I thought she had completely emptied her stomach, but no. As soon as I began to move the truck, the bowl was utilized. Then we got to the dry heaving & I’ll just say…

It was a long trip home.

Source: kenoir323 on threads.
Are you better off than four years ago?

I need to catch up on my posts – I missed the monthly list of holidays & celebrations; I missed last Sunday’s Coffee, Cannabis, & Kirk; and I desperately need to set up my Cafe Counseling page. Believe me when I say, the iron infusion is clearing my brain fog (thankfully) & my energy level has increased.

Let me say, Spring has Sprung in southwest Missouri, and it’s not far away here in eastern Illinois. As we drove through Missouri my asthma decided to vehemently disagree with our location. Usually it is Roe who is allergic to Missouri, and I suppose she got her own to deal with, as previously discussed. Since I had been struggling already (going five days without my main asthma medication) my breathing was not great.

A Dandelion Pokes Into A Door by: Harry Bliss

And the snot… ohhhhh the snot.

I am so freakin’ sick of snot & we are just getting started in the first season of snot of the year.

On that note, I sincerely hope you’re not suffering as we have been!
🗣️Talk Soon,
Cecelia✌🏻🌊💙

Decongestant by: CSA Images